Tuesdays are so much better than Mondays. Everything is crazy on Mondays. The kids are always grumpy, my house is a mess, laundry has piled up and I cant ever stay on top of it all. If you talk to me on Mondays- I am sorry. I don't mean to be a whiny, blubbery mess, but I just can't help it.
Tuesdays may not always be better than Mondays, but I have better perspective. By Tuesday, I decide that it's ok that the kids are grumpy, my house is a mess, laundry has piled up, and I can't stay on top of it all. Nich gave me a good pep talk last night that was quite encouraging. It was good to hear from him that he doesn't expect everything to be perfect either. Our kids are young right now, and they need us. And there just is not enough energy or time in the day to get everything done.
I feel like I am at a low point in my parenting career right now. Eva has regressed in her potty training (i think the stress of being away from home for almost a week threw her over the edge), she is not eating (not exactly new- but she now uses 2-year old force), and she is rude, tantrumy and defiant. Probably all normal Terrible Two stuff, but tiring nonetheless.
Kaitlyn is back to wanting to eat every 2 hours (ahhhH!), and is waking up more often to eat at night. She takes short catnaps all day long- which may sound nice, but it's hard to get her to go to sleep- it takes a lot of time and energy. And more time away from Eva, means an unhappier Eva.
Sigh, I am exhausted.
Sometimes I just want to fast-forward a few months. I know in theory I will miss a lot of neat things, but I want this phase to be over. I'm not having any fun. Parenting really sucks sometimes.
Yesterday, I was completely down and out about it all. And today, well, I'm not pleased, but I'm not fighting it anymore. I have put Eva in Pull-ups again (except during naptime and at night, cuz she knows how to hold it, she just is missing the potty while she's awake. How backwards is that?) And, whatever, I'll just feed Kaitlyn when she's hungry, even though it seems like nursing is all I ever do. And night-wakings, well, hopefully that will get better with time.
I want to enjoy my kids. They are so terribly cute when they are all good and behaving-like. Eva loves to sing all sorts of songs (ABC's, Old McDonald, BaaBaa Black Sheep, Jesus Loves Me etc). And, yesterday, she walked around strumming her little guitar while singing her favourites.
Kaitlyn is a smiley, gurgly girl- when she's actually awake. Here she is during tummy time this morning...
Kaitlyn is a smiley, gurgly girl- when she's actually awake. Here she is during tummy time this morning...
She's bringing back Eva's trademark Mexx hat. I think she wore it every day for about 5 months. I miss it! Glad it's back in action.I don't really know how to wrap up this post. Let's see here: parenting is hard, terrible two's suck, kids are sure cute, so I guess it's all worth it. The end.
Posts like this make me poo my pants in fright at the thought of having a newborn and a toddler. How do moms make it through that stage?! You are doing a great job, and things will get better. Sometimes all we can do is resign ourselves to the craziness and try to have fun in the midst of it. Which is what I think you're doing, so good job. :)